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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 01:44

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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What did i know ?

Why did i forgive my father ?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We all went to grammer schools

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I never cut or harmed myself..

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Im still living with it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

What do you love to do at night when you’re alone?

All the time i was locked up.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We were not on the streets..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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I don,t even have a pension.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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My life is so biszare .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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My family never makes their pension either.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

So, i spoilt her more .

But it wasn’t much.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

And i lived it daily.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I have no regrets .

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Put me off passion for life!!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She found it foreign!.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So whats the point in blame.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I think the readers, may guess!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She was in good health!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Especially a lifetime of it.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

One cannot live in the past .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I was very sick at this time too.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I waited trembling.

I was scared of men, in general

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Comes on , in middle age.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I will be 64.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I was 9 years of age.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She loved him until the end.

I write beautiful poetry .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Who then, do I blame.?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But ive been too sick for many years..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

It was going to be , some day.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I couldn’t, believe it.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

When she asked me how she looked .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He knew the spot.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Ive learnt so much.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was seconnd youngest,

I said to her

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But, we were locked up after school.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

This is soul school!.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She married twice! .

Would this be the day?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She wouldn,t have been !

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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