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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 09:23

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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He resisted the act ,that day.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My life is so biszare .

But, we were locked up after school.

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Comes on , in middle age.

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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I have no regrets .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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I write beautiful poetry .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

My family never makes their pension either.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I will be 64.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

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My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

What did i know ?

I never cut or harmed myself..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So whats the point in blame.

But it wasn’t much.

Ive learnt so much.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Im still living with it.

She found it foreign!.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She was in good health!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was very sick at this time too.

I could never make a relationship work though!

And i lived it daily.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I don,t even have a pension.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She married twice! .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Put me off passion for life!!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I said to her

Why did i forgive my father ?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

It was going to be , some day.

He knew the spot.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She wouldn,t have been !

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

One cannot live in the past .

When she asked me how she looked .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I think the readers, may guess!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

This is soul school!.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

As i do to all so called friends.?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was seconnd youngest,

I was 9 years of age.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I waited trembling.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I was scared of men, in general

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Would this be the day?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Who then, do I blame.?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She loved him until the end.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

So, i spoilt her more .

All the time i was locked up.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We all went to grammer schools

We were not on the streets..

Was to survive, this bastard.